Since I 've been here, I used to hide my real feeling and pretend that I can accept everything. But since last week, it seems that there are a person to let me release my anger. However, that person actually wants to be nice to me. Althought sometimesshe has got a really bad attitude and she thought she is the commander. I catch this point and become really rude to her. However, I feel really guilty afterthat. People said to me that I should be nice to her. True, I think so. I am so afraid. I have so many things want to tell but I won't and I can't. Now I understand no matter when or where, mask is needed. It is the only time that I can be alone at school. It is better to keep a distance with everyone, includung myself. Stop my tears. And life goes on without any feelings.