flaws

Yesterday I went to the supertmarket with mum. We met principal Yuen, my primary school principal. We talked for a while. She still remembers me and my sister. They talked about the problem of education, how difference between the old days and now, how hard to maintain good education...I was listened. When she asked about me, we all found out that I am different. It is good or not, I don't like it. She reminds me that when I was a primary kid, I was afraid of nothing and I protested for everything I want and I thought it was right.Also, I was brave enough to talk to big people. However, yes, I've changed. I don't like to say much word. I don't like to argue. Even I hate talking to strangers as I lost all the confindence. I hate myself every much. I even can not control my feeling. I hate people controlling me. Sometimes I will think what make me changed. People or myself ? Frankly, this two years is the most repugnan. It is tired to find out people's feeling. I can't always fulfill everyone. I never tells my feeling as people will say that this is your own problem and you can't always desire people to change for you. So I changed. I don't want to blame anyone as no one put a gun on my head and force me to do. In fact, I am so resentful at the way I had been and I really hate always do the right things. I can't linger in this place anymore. Although I made many mistakes in my childhood but I really like it . I was so dauntless when I was a kid. There are flaws in my life.